I have to once think of my future at this moment. I know that I've been living only for my future so far. I studied. I worked. I practiced. I learned. And it was all for future.
My friends are dying. At first I had this dumb emotion about death. I did not even go to the funeral. I hated meeting material people at the funeral who was only searching for something other than the death of friend. But now, meeting a death of my muse, the Big Leo, I clearly get the feeling of sadness about death.
Ancient Egyptians were obsessed about the death and after life. They prayed. They suffered for the afterlife. From the national museum's exhibition of Egypt, I've bought this little necklace. I liked this shape the first moment I saw in the dictionary when I was a kid. Its name is the Eye's of Udjat. Long time ago, during the battle against Seth, Horus lost his "eye of the moon", the right eye. The god Toth healed that eye. Later, Horus used that eye to rise from the dead his father Osiride died during the battle. Since then, Egyptians started to believe that the Eye of Horus is the eternal renewal symbol. It came from the fear of death and will to live. Though this symbol did not have a physical power, they believed in eyes of their heart. But I questioned. Why did they care so much about living eternally when they could try the best to live happy at the moment when they are truly alive? I wondered as I was watching the mummies of servants. Were they happy? Wouldn't they be forced to be like that? If there really is an afterlife, would they happy now?
I don't know about others. But for me, I'm starting to realize that trying the best at the present is the real prepare for the future. Enjoy the moment! Seize the day! Why not live happy now when you are expecting to live happy later? Mistakes are taken. Mistakes are mistake. There are always faults both in the present and the future. We will only need a bit of forgiveness and willingness. That's all we need.
But I’m having this necklace anyways. It feels safe Oh, my eyes of heart...
Carpe diem!
My friends are dying. At first I had this dumb emotion about death. I did not even go to the funeral. I hated meeting material people at the funeral who was only searching for something other than the death of friend. But now, meeting a death of my muse, the Big Leo, I clearly get the feeling of sadness about death.
Ancient Egyptians were obsessed about the death and after life. They prayed. They suffered for the afterlife. From the national museum's exhibition of Egypt, I've bought this little necklace. I liked this shape the first moment I saw in the dictionary when I was a kid. Its name is the Eye's of Udjat. Long time ago, during the battle against Seth, Horus lost his "eye of the moon", the right eye. The god Toth healed that eye. Later, Horus used that eye to rise from the dead his father Osiride died during the battle. Since then, Egyptians started to believe that the Eye of Horus is the eternal renewal symbol. It came from the fear of death and will to live. Though this symbol did not have a physical power, they believed in eyes of their heart. But I questioned. Why did they care so much about living eternally when they could try the best to live happy at the moment when they are truly alive? I wondered as I was watching the mummies of servants. Were they happy? Wouldn't they be forced to be like that? If there really is an afterlife, would they happy now?
I don't know about others. But for me, I'm starting to realize that trying the best at the present is the real prepare for the future. Enjoy the moment! Seize the day! Why not live happy now when you are expecting to live happy later? Mistakes are taken. Mistakes are mistake. There are always faults both in the present and the future. We will only need a bit of forgiveness and willingness. That's all we need.
But I’m having this necklace anyways. It feels safe Oh, my eyes of heart...
Carpe diem!
J.
The Egyptians were not obsessed with death rather, they were full of knowledge. The Udjat and the measurements assocication with it (fractions from 1/4 to 1/64) and there correlation to smell, sight, thought, hearing, taste, touch and healing. People with such a strong connection with the source did not fear death. The fear was of ignorance and coming back to this life and having to start learning again. Just my thoughts :-).
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