Thesedays, thiny skiny models are strolling all over the streets. I TRUELY DIDN"T LIKE EM.
I hated people saying GIRLS SUPPOSED TO BE SKINNY and I didn't want to make myself same as others even causing the eating disorder in my body. I exercise and make muscles instead.
But This Girl, HAN impressed me. She's in NYC and she's traveling all oround the world for work.
But if I thought I ENVY HER.. uh-huh, I am wrong. She works, runs, and crawls(?) for work. She doesn't even have time to go restroom! I've heard about REAL NY or Hollywood life before in KimYeonJin's book. What I liked about Han was.. that she was very humble and unique as a Korean model. She didnt blame on Koreans like other no-brain girls. I think she will get on the top someday.. But for some reason, I started to envy her life. that busy life. It was the same feeling when I watched the movie "Chicago"... Feeling dizy and sentimental..
When one model said "After I wandering around this dazzling NYC , I realized the place i belong to is the stage", I thought about myself. Where is my place?..
Stage? Screen? the Chair? the Blackboard? or... the Street? nono... my room?...
Walkin the streets for two hrs listening to my favorite radio FM, DJ LeeMoonSei, I again had time to think...Well, weather I wander or just keep work or do something, I think theres nothing that change. But One thing is that I get used to those feelings.
As I feel dramatically different day by day, I feel myself too psychotic.
I gotta find the middling point...
